Asphyxiation

Seven things i hate about you: (or more like related to)
1. i hate how i keep hoping and checking for your name to suddenly appear on my phone screen
2. i hate how it keeps me awake thinking i'm gonna see you again soon
3. i hate how i get paranoid, thinking you're always there to watch me flaw
4. i hate how in almost everything i do, i would hope you were there with me
5. i hate how i have to go through all my attempted failures to forget about you, even for a little while
6. i hate how you've imprinted your smile into my mind, not letting me stop thinking about it for every 5 seconds
7. i hate how you're a wonderful person and it pains me to feel like i'm not good enough for you :(

I don't know why, but i can never stand being in this position. this very situation and position i'm in right now.
it may never be a big deal to anyone else, but i really feel bummed. seriously. you know, that type of situation where you're happy or you're relying on something, and that very thing you hoped for is the thing that lets you down in the end.


P.S. Asphyxiation. that's my favorite word :p i just like how it sounds. sounds exciting, doesn't it?